If wishes were horses

Like some out there, I have many wishes, dreams and imaginations. Like many, they rarely become reality. 

But I've found the more you dwell on what you dont have, the more you dont have. 

Its a waste of time and takes you to places you should not be. Which are very hard to leave.

I dont think I am alone when I say; I looked up from my work of 28 years and had not progressed to where I wanted to be despite working my whole adult and some of my youth. 

So I did a really scary thing. 

I resigned. 

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I had and still have no job to go to. It was a very 'The straw that broke the camels back' kind of decision.

I have a little savings and I mean a little. Not a few hundred thousand pounds in an offshore savings account and a few hundred bonds. (I wish). Very little.

So despite feeling guilty, I went abroad for my birthday not on my own,  but with my sister. 

It was cheap but absolutely lovely. A different place, people different atmosphere.

Of course I realised all I have been doing was working to help everyone else and not doing anything for myself. 

I now find myself in a unique position. Out of work, yes but. Due to the past pandemic. Work had been very short staffed as people were off sick a lot in my workplace. 

So I found myself learning new skills. And working in a lead role.

Since putting my CV up on Indeed and Reed, I have had many agencies calling me up for work. I really dont know what to do? 

I have never been in demand before.